Something that I have noticed is that answered prayers will always require a level of resilience and sacrifice. In my last post, I shared about my transition to a new apartment and a new job recently. These are desires I prayed to God about and He aligned the opportunity. I am beyond grateful, but I do acknowledge that it has been a huge adjustment. This answered prayer has brought me to a point of feeling overwhelmed by life. It has challenged me professionally and emotionally in a way that has exposed my fears and emotional weaknesses. In this post, I hope to transparently share my current the experience of being overwhelmed by life. I will also share the coping skills and resources that are helping me to find balance in life during this season of growth in my life.
I Feel Buried by Life
Over the last few months, it has been a season of transition. I have a new apartment, a new job and new friends that have fertilized this new season of life with joy and new challenges. I have been blessed with a job that has truly challenged me professionally and emotionally. This job is extremely fast paced with high expectations, which has forced me to level up. Dealing with this change in work atmospheres has been more difficult since losing my grandmother in March 2019. My grandmother has been such an influential part of mine and my family’s life, and losing her was so unexpected. Around this same time things began to get more challenging at work, and I felt like I was saying and doing all the wrong things. This created a compound effect of as being completely overwhelmed by life and emotionally drained.
Since then I have felt myself slowly feeling buried with anxiety, lethargy, and feelings of depression. I have also seen my negative coping skills of stress eating, stress spending and venting rearing its ugly head like weeds. In this season I have had to remind myself that I have been in this place before and how God walked me through that dark place into peace. So I am striving to meditate on the truth that God is the source of my worth and peace in the midst of every challenging moment.
I am Not Buried, I am Planted
Reminding myself that God is with me prompted me to re-focus and reconnect with God. I enjoy connecting with God a few ways, his Word (the Bible), worship and journaling. I felt inspired to restart my 90 day Bible reading plan in John 12 where I had left off. During this time John 12:24 spoke to my challenges and brought understanding to its purpose. In this verse, it talks about how a grain of wheat will never be more than it is now unless it is broken off and placed into the ground in order to grow. In its context, this verse is talking about how Jesus suffered for God’s plans to redeem each and every one of us. It also showed me that growing into my purpose will require its own unique form of suffering that helps grow me into a woman that walks in her purpose and serves others well.
In this season of life, I truly relate the a grain of wheat that has been broken and put in the ground. I have been snatched from my comfort zone and buried in a cold uncomfortable place. This place feels dark, cold and unfair. This place has made me begin to feel depressed. If I didn’t understand my depression, I wouldn’t know that me being over overwhelmed by life triggered by fear of failure and a painful loss. To cope I had to change my perspective and choose to believe that I am planted, not buried. I can choose to believe this because I know God has a plan to help me grow into more than I used to be by planting me in different seasons of life. I also know that God has a plan for my life just as He did the life of Jesus. I am almost certain that God also has a plan for your life, and a plan to help you grow.
“Let me make this clear: A single grain of wheat will never be more than a single grain of wheat unless it drops into the ground and dies. Because then it sprouts and produces a great harvest of wheat—all because one grain died. John 12:24 (The Passion Translation)”
Change Your Perspective
So be honest with me sis, why do you feel overwhelmed by life lately. Is it a loss in the family, an unanswered prayer, a dramatic relationships or a difficult job? Whatever it is I challenge you to change your perspective. You may feel overwhelmed and buried buried by life, but you have to change your perspective. Get to know God and his character in life’s difficult seasons so you can begin to trust that in every season of life He has planted you with all the resources needed to grow. I challenge you to trust that no matter how lonely, hectic and frustrating life feels, trust that God has a plan for it to grow you for your good and the good of others. So don’t stay buried, but prepare to grow.
These growing seasons will be difficult, find the resources God has blessed you with and cling to them. These are the things that will help you to find balance in life during this difficult season. For me the things that help me find balance are my daily minimums. So I made sure to intentionally prioritize my routines, quality time with my friends & family and got vulnerable with my inner circle about my emotions. I am also re-establishing my quality time with God. All these things give me the strength to grow under any conditions thrown at me.
As always, this is only my personal experience and what currently works best for me. However, I truly believe there are resources out there that can help you to grow in whatever difficult season you are experiencing. Help others find what works for them by sharing what works for you in the comments below. If you are experiencing mental health issues that you feel are more than you can bear alone please find a therapist or call the suicide hotline at 1-800-273-8255. Until next time, I pray you will let this season grow you rather than wipe you out.
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